Dr. Vinny Chitluri is an author who has
researched and documented Baba’s life history. She now lives in Shirdi and has been
His devotee for the past 70 years. In this film, Vinnyji speaks about
the life and relationship of one of Sai Baba’s most intimate devotees,
Hari Sitaram Dixit (Kaka Dixit). I love Kaka Dixit. His name was Hari Sitaram Dixit and
he was a lawyer, a really famous lawyer, and he had won the Bhavnagar cases and in the Quit India Movement, he had won
many cases against the Britishers
that were ruling us at that time. He was affluent, and also powerful, and he was really friendly with
Nanasaheb Chandorkar, and Nanasaheb Chandorkar
asked him to come to Shirdi because when Dixit was in England at one time,
he slipped and fell and and his leg was caught, and then he became lame and he had
this limp which was quite pronounced, and Chandorkar told him,
“Come to Sai Baba, and He will cure your limp.” At that time, Dixit came to Baba, but he said,
“I’m not interested in my physical lameness,
cure the lameness of my brain.” Baba loved him a lot right from the
very beginning, and said to him, “Kaka…” The other people called Dixit ‘Kaka’,
and so did Baba. And Baba said, “Kaka, tula kaarzi kaslis? Saari kaarzi maajhi.” That is, ” What are you worried about?
All your worries are mine.” So he got this reassurance right from the beginning. So, that way, he was free
to do his spiritual work. The other thing that Baba promised
him, and to no other devotee, was, “I will take my Kaka in a Vimaan (airplane).”
That means he was assured of his death also. So that gave him enough time to do the reading,
and the Parayan, and the Sadhna that he did in Shirdi. In the beginning, he used to come
off and on from Mumbai, and then he decided that he would make a Wada,
so that he could stay in that Wada,
and be for longer times with Baba. With the result of him staying in Shirdi
and not attending to his practice, it started dwindling, and then his
partners, of course, left him. Slowly, all his the wealth that he had
was spent on just living… What I really like about Kaka is … If you lose money, it’s a shock for you,
but you’re sure you can make it (again). But when you lose the adulation of the crowd, … the way people welcomed him, and the fanfare
with which the car doors were opened,
and things like that … that adulation of the crowds and of the
people that worked with him, that was lost. That, to me, is a bigger blow than
losing money. But Kaka didn’t bother about it. Once Baba had told him not to have any worries,
he just didn’t. It didn’t bother him at all. Instead of being depressed, and sulking, and thinking
that “I’ve come to this Fakir and I’m losing things”, he was quite happy, and he brought down
the needs of living to the bare minimum. That way, he didn’t need to have
lots of money to do his day-to-day living. He was very simple in his habits, he had no bad habits,
he didn’t chew tobacco or any of those things… and all he did was to know the Sadguru better,
and to spend his time reading, because Baba had told him to read
certain spiritual scriptures, which he did,
religiously, even after Baba’s Samadhi. Kaka’s absolute faith in his Guru As far as Kaka’s character goes, once he was talking
not very nice things about another devotee, then Baba said, “Kaka, when you
talk ill of someone, it hurts me.” Kaka took that as a lesson
and not only changed himself, (he had a very bad temper,
he conquered that temper) he was very kind and courteous
and really humble, this one sentence from Baba changed
his whole demeanour and his character. That is something that is really, really
hard to do, but he was able to do that. The other thing was Kaka was
really a kind-hearted man. When the devotees would sleep, they would put pesticides and insecticides and things
around their beds. Kaka didn’t bother. He said, “I’m a sound sleeper
in any case, and if the bedbugs come… (which were rampant in Shirdi at that time…) and they may suck some blood of mine, it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter too much to me.” Even to that extent, he didn’t want to put
insecticides to drive away those bedbugs. In the Charitra, there’s the story of
killing the ailing goat in the Dwarkamayee, even Bade Baba was not willing to do it. Shyama, of course, when he found out
what the knife was going to be used for,
he went away, and stayed in his Wada. Shama didn’t turn up. Kaka Dikshit, who is not willing to kill
a bedbug, was quite ready to kill this goat. And the thing here is that Baba says to him, “Kaka, what are you doing? You are a Brahmin,
and you follow the rule of Ahimsa,
and you are killing the goat?” The answer that Kaka gives is
out of this world. He says, “Baba, I don’t know about the repercussions
of Karma or Ahimsa or anything. You said, ‘Kill’, so I kill. It’s just what You say, Your word is Law unto me,
and I don’t worry about the consequences of it. You are my Sadguru, and you’re going to carry me
through this, or any other thing that should befall me.” This is something that one does not
see in any of the other devotees. He did not bother about the Law of Karma or… I love the man… what can I do…?
I can’t help it… I love him… This is one incident that to me is: that you follow your Guru,
you don’t ask why,
you just do what your Guru says. He is there to look after you,
He will carry you through. That was one thing that I like about Kaka. The other thing was: Once he got a dream
in which he he owed somebody 30,000 rupees. In the dream, the the person he owes the money to
comes and says, “Give me my money.” So he says, “Oh, Sir Chimanlal will do it.” When Kaka gets up in the morning, he gets
angry with himself that he didn’t say
Baba would do it, in the dream…! This is a dream… and Kaka can’t even bear the
thought that even in his dream he didn’t say, “My Guru is there behind my back,
He would do it for me, I don’t have to worry,
you’ll get your money on time.” Another incident was – he had won a case,
and he got a huge amount of money, I think,
again it was Rs 30,000 and he brought the trunkful of money
into the Dwarkamayee, and he said,
“Baba, this is Your money.” So Baba said,
“Yeah, oh, okay Kaka, it’s my money?” and He took the money and He
scattered it and gave it to everyone. There was another devotee looking at Kaka’s face. He did not bat an eyelid. There was not a sigh, there was not a frown, there was nothing, he was just calm. He’s given the money, it’s now Baba’s money,
he has given the money to Baba,
Baba can do what He feels like with it. A normal human being would have said,
“Oh my God, He’s just scattered the money,
He’s indiscriminately giving it to everybody.” But it did not make a difference to Kaka. The other thing that Kaka did was –
he used to sing the Aartis. In the abhang, ‘Reham Nazar Karo’, he doesn’t like it that the last verse says
that in the end, there is nobody with us.
He’s felt, “Oh, Baba’s with us.” So he changed it to include Baba in that abhang, and he would sing it that way, instead of saying
nobody is going to be with us in the end. So the faith in Baba was so much that he was sure that Baba would not
leave him on the wayside, in anything. Kaka’s spiritual life with Baba Kaka was a very spiritual man,
and Baba wanted him to be ripened, like what the Gurus do for a Shishya, so he asked Kaka to go up and stay
on the top floor of the Dixit Wada. Kaka had built this Wada so that he didn’t have to
come from Mumbai all the time and rather
he stay in that Wada and be with Baba constantly, so that just by being with Baba, he would
learn many things in the spiritual path. He listened to every word that Baba
said, and he had a diary in which he wrote it down,
and tried to decipher the meaning
of what Baba had spoken, be it to other devotees, or
what parables Baba spoke about. Baba did not always talk in plain Marathi,
but He would use parables. So they would try to decipher and from there,
learn, get a lesson, and learn it,
and inculcate it into their lives. Baba asked him to go and stay for nine months
Ekaant (in seclusion) on the top floor
of his building, which he did. And at that time, he really pined to see Baba, and
he said, “Baba, can I come for your Aartis at least?” So Baba said, “No, you just stay there,
and do the reading of these books.” Baba had given him the
Bhavartha Ramayana, the Dnyaneshwari,
and He had asked him to read them, to read and understand,
and then use them in his life. So he did. He was there all by himself. Even when his wife came, he did not
come down to meet her or talk to her. He didn’t talk to the other people, so he was in
Ekaant Moun (solitude and silence) with the books. When you look at the Sadhna that other people
do for their Guru, it’s many many years… And Baba gave him only nine months,
he was so ripe already in the spiritual path. Nine months is what we take
for the birth of a baby, so Baba gave him a New Birth. So after he came out of that Ekaant, after his
nine months were complete in that Moun state, he was so spiritually uplifted that he could
decipher what Baba was going to say, like many times… the instance
that comes to mind is… Baba asked Bhishma to give Him five laddoos. Bhishma said, “I’m a widower,
how can I make five laddoos?” He thought of it literally, that he
has to make and give Baba five laddoos. So the next day, Dixit just walks by
Sathe Wada and says, “Oh!” Bhishma comes out and says, “Kaka, look at this, at night I couldn’t sleep, and I wrote one Bhajan.” … which is one of the Aartis… Kaka just read it and said, “Oh, you got
your first laddoo!” And Kaka didn’t hear that conversation,
but yet he could decipher what Baba would say. And many a time, when many things would be done,
they would ask Kaka to ask Baba if they could do it. Either it would be Mhalsapatti,
or it would be Kaka. And Baba really never ever refused him for anything. The other thing was that
once Baba was giving Kafnis out, and at that time Dixit didn’t get a Kafni. And he pined to have a Kafni, because he thought that
when he is going to do Puja, he would wear a Kafni. And the other thing was that Dixit was not in Baba’s… When He sat for lunch, He sat with certain
devotees, but Dixit was not included in them. He pined for those two things. And after a little while, Baba let him sit in that
room with with Him and have his meals. And He also gave him a Kafni
(which they have in their house), and he used to wear it when he
used to do puja and bhajans in the evening Looking on all with
oneness and compassion Because of his education abroad, when Kaka came to Shirdi,
he did not find any difference between the Hindus, Muslims, Sikhs, and Christians
that came to meet Baba. For him, everybody, every human being was equal,
and and there was no difference between them. That was one quality which is
really, really very nice. There is another Leela of a snake coming
through the window in his Dixit Wada, and Dabholkar says, “Kill the snake,” because his bed was right below that window,
and the snake would have bitten him. And Balawate and they have a
conversation, Balawate says, “No.” So when they go to Baba, Baba tells them,
“You don’t need to kill these snakes or scorpions
or any of these venomous creatures. If you’re destined to die by a snakebite,
no matter what, you will die.” So Kaka took this as a Law
and he followed it. He did not kill any of the (creatures),
not a mosquito, not a bedbug, not anything… If there was a snake, then they would
drive it away and not kill it. Kaka’s invaluable contribution
after Baba’s Mahasamadhi For 14 years he was with the Sansthan;
the Sansthan was just built at that time, and also the Sai Leela magazine,
for which he did a lot of work. So even after Baba’s Samadhi, he continued to
do work or Seva for Baba in these respects. The other thing of his that
people follow even today, is that he had the habit
after Baba’s Mahasamadhi, if he wanted to know something,
he would cast chits, and then follow it, no matter what the
verdict was, whether it went according to his will
(what he wanted to do) or not, he would follow it, as it was
Baba’s word, and he believed in it. So many devotees do that nowadays, they will cast chits and say,
“Baba, should I do this thing or not?” In Dixit’s life, there are many
things that we can learn. To me, he is the the best of the best.
I love him. Life lessons to learn
from Kakasaheb Dixit When I’m in Shirdi and I can’t
deal with the scarcity of water, … water doesn’t come, electricity doesn’t come,
my files get corrupted, and things like that… I go to Dixit Wada and pray to
him to bless me. “How did YOU live here, when there were
scorpions and snakes going about,
and there was no light and things… How did you do it?
So bless me with that.
Bless me with humility. Bless me with picking up a chit
and not wondering if this is going contrary
to what I think I should do.” If I am going to put a chit,
then like Kaka, I should be totally… That’s it, that’s the word, that’s
the law, it’s like killing the goat,
He said “kill”, kill. So He said, “Do this.”
In the chit, it came out, “Do this.”
Or don’t put chits. These are some of the things that
one can learn from Kaka. The most important thing is to live within
your means, and to be content by it. He was the picture of Siddh Pragnya. It didn’t bother him that other people had money
and he didn’t have money…
his family was suffering… nothing bothered him. Baba told him not to worry, and that was it. And the last thing – everybody knows about his death. He died in a train without any
suffering, taking Baba’s name. In fact, he said, “How kind Baba is, that He has delayed the train for us, that we were able to catch it, and reach
our destination.” And he died in his sleep… So that is the best thing
that one can expect of life… Baba in the Dwarkamayee pose.
Paintd by Shyamrao Jayker. Presented to Dixitji by
Moreshwar Pradhan’s family. Painting of Baba sitting on the stone Painted by Shyamrao Jayker Khadaus (wooden footwear)
given by Baba to Dixit. Symbol of perfect asceticism. Small silver padukas, Hanumanji, and Ganapathiji in a little silver box that Dixitji carried with him everywhere he went. For more information on Vinny Chitluri and the Sai Korhale Temple, visit SaiKorhale.com We need your support to make more such films. Give us your support. Become a Patron today.